Some Calm and Happy amidst the storms

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Life really is about the little things.  Especially during hard times.  And hard days.   And I’ve had my fair share of those over the last few months.  But I must remember the positive things in the midst of all of that. The good days.  So today I will remember a short walk around our neighborhood, appreciative of the later light.  The spring sun, warm but not hot.  Other neighbors wandering with dogs and kids.  Thinking about the future and listening to a chapter of Harry Potter on my ipod, the sun framing the trees.  Spending a long time in the kitchen making a healthy dinner and a huge batch of banana bread.  Watching Love Actually for the millionth time and not caring that I know the whole thing by heart or the fact that it’s a random Tuesday in March and not Christmas.   Because sometimes you need a gentle reminder that Love ACTUALLY is all around.  Because it doesn’t matter how many times you see it, you still tear up with little boy Sam comes running up to Liam Neeson’s character after he kisses the little girl.  Or smile at the “To me you are perfect” sign.  It doesn’t matter how often I see it, it’s always a genuine reminder of the good in the world and the good in life.

I want to remember on the bad days that in the grand scheme of things, all is temporary right now and a newer and better chapter is just around the corner.  And a peaceful day like today is also just around the corner. When I was in a particularly rough state Chris reminded me to look at this print – that thanks to a birthday present from Steph – I got off Etsy recently.

I don’t think I could even tell you which Harry Potter book this came from, but it is something I frequently remember, and now I look at everyday. Dumbledore is right.

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I also posted this on Facebook today:

 

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Nothing is more true.

I am so grateful for friends, my parents and family, and of course, Chris.

 

Happy Midweek all.

5 little things I’m excited for

In an ongoing effort fo focus on the little things…because it’s all of the little moments that make up happiness…here are 5 little things that I am looking forward to on this Friday – (besides the weekend of course.)

1. Michael Buble is coming out with a new CD on April 23rd!  I’ve seen him concert twice and most certainly would go again when he hopefully tours this new CD!

2. Khaled Hosseini is coming out with a new novel on May 2st.  I loved Kite Runner and A Thousand Splendid Suns, and am excited to see something new from this author.  Now if Dan Brown would just write something new…

3. It’s almost time for outdoor softball.  Now I love my indoor softball. The team we play with is fun and hilarious…but I don’t like the 30 min commute to Roseville, and there’s something about the crack of the outdoor bats that really signifies that spring is here. The crazy heat of summer hasn’t started we are finally getting daylight longer.  It’s a good, good thing all the way around.

4. The Big C, Newsroom and Dexter are all coming back! Girls may have ended, and Shameless is almost done…but three of my favorite shows come back over the next few months.

5. Change.  Usually the source of so much of my anxiety…but in this case some really good things and changes are on the docket and I’m really looking forward to what they will bring.

What are you looking forward to??

Best Reads of the Month

Sometimes you’ve gotta be a little bit cliché and while I haven’t been writing so much over the past month, I’ve been reading – a lot.  I know a lot of bloggers who post link round ups, either weekly or monthly.  Some people may get tired of them, but I actually love them, because it’s these link round ups that have turned me on to some of my favorite blogs or directed me to some really profound articles.
So here you go: a handful of the best things I’ve read over the last month.

Have you read anything worth sharing lately?

“To Do” vs Want to do

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I’ve been thinking a lot about how many of us are programmed to always be doing what we ‘should be doing’ rather than what we actually want to be doing.  I went on a cleaning rampage on Friday night, since Chris has been sick and I really didn’t want to catch it. So I woke up Saturday morning, mentally thinking about all of the things I needed to cross off my to do list before we went to visit his family in the afternoon.  And it struck me, I’m always, always thinking about what the next thing I NEED to do is. I’m very rarely thinking about what I want to do. Or just doing something for the sake of doing it.  I have at least 4 books stacked up on my night stand that I’ve started but just haven’t had the time to finish.  Not to mention a whole other shelf of unread books… though my book hoarding issue is a topic for another blog.  I have a pile of magazines that I want to read.  I’ve been wanting to watch some movies that I haven’t seen in a long time. I have had ideas for blog posts in my head for weeks.

But what have I been doing instead?  I’ve been worried about the messy house, obsessing about spending the weekends cleaning it up…even when we have no one coming over to visit.  I’ve spent and abysmal amount of mindless time on social media as compared to what I used to be doing.  I’ll fall into the trap of occasionally watching whatever’s on TV…although watching the majority of Mr. Holland’s Opus last weekend made me very happy.  The point is…probably mainly in the wake of not feeling well over the last several weeks, I’ve turned myself into To Do Lists and mindlessness. I think in some ways it’s a coping mechanism.  Having chronic health problems can be so physically and emotionally wearing.  But I really think I need to find my way back into doing more for just me.  Not more things that I HAVE to do.  Not more obligations.  But just things that I want to do, without judging or feeling guilty.

So, I promise to spend more time: reading books and magazines, watching something because I want to watch it, searching and on Pinterest because I enjoy it, baking just because, going for walks, writing in all forms – Blogs, Journaling, and perhaps some fiction as well. Laying in my bed with Bertie and on rare occasions Chris when he’s home listening to the morning birds for longer than I “should”.  It’s these things that make life happy.  In the midst of health issues, uncertainty, future plans and chaos…I’ve REALLY gotta remember this.  It’s time to stop “shoulding” and just DO.