They say that with kids the days are long and the years are short. Boy do I believe that’s true. Some days are truly harder than others, and some days I look at her and think – how could it possibly have been this long already?? She is already 3 months old. Also meaning it’s been almost a year since we got pregnant. Where does that time go? How does everything change so very much in just a year’s time? There are some days now where I want to cry because I’m tired from lack of sleep and sore from sitting in strange positions and breastfeeding all day long, but those are much fewer than the days that I feel so fully lucky to be living the life we are. It’s far from perfect and of course our marriage is truly being tested by adjusting to life with kids, but when I wake up in the morning and see my little girl smile, I know that everything is as it should be. And I know that I want to give her everything, teach her everything, and be the best mommy I can be to her.
I often have to remind myself, that to her I AM the best mommy. Even if I may be unhappy with my postpartum body, she doesn’t care and she thinks it’s wonderful. (This article helped put that into perspective) I especially like the line “Your body as it is now is how it should be. A little softer. A little more lived in. A little more loved.” I should be concerned with being healthy and taking care of her. Nothing more.
The other night, this article about unnecessary c-sections got me SO fired up. I get so passionate about childbirth now after going through the experience and all of the eye-opening research I did leading up to it. I would love to eventually become a doula. That’s not so easy to do while caring for a small baby, but there are other avenues to get into that profession. I started reading this book, and I’m really excited about the prospects of learning how to do that. More on that later.
I’m trying to read a lot, and find more time to write. Reading is doable while nursing…writing, not so much. But I’ll get back to it more. I’ll be back to writing a few articles on Girls on the Grid next month about baby shower gift ideas and local mom resources. On here I plan to get back to some regular updates of “what I’m” (reading, watching, cooking, doing) Hopefully I’ll get to do some reviews of pregnancy and childbirth books I read, baby items, and other Clare related news. Perhaps some posts on the interesting articles and fun videos I find as I spend many nursing sessions scrolling around on my phone.
There’s lots of exciting things on the horizon and for once I’m not in a rush to have it all completely mapped out…because I know it will fall into place. It always does.